Thursday, 19 November 2009

I is for...

Apologies for the delay, my brain stopped working. So this is probably of dubious quality, but compared to what I've scribbled for my assignment so far it's a work of Shakespearian genius.


Institutionalisation

Usually considered to be a problem for patients, but researchers tend to completely fail to take into account that more often than not the staff are much, much more institutionalised than the patients. Try and shake up a routine and the most of the staff will bitch like hell. However, some staff are more flexible than others...that is, if the patients will let them be.

This is best illustrated by a couple of stories from work.

(a)The case of the extra milk:

One of the wards has flasks of hot water put out for people to make their own drinks with*. At certain points during the day, we also put out tea bags, sugar and a couple of pints of milk for people who don’t have the cash to buy their own. The other day we had a few extra pints of milk knocking about so, rather than nick them for the office, we stuck it out with the flasks. Now I wasn’t expecting people to fall down and worship at the feet of the milk-bringers or anything, but nor was I expecting the barrage of shouts of “it’s not milk time!” that I received on doing so. Next time, I’m filching the damn milk for myself.

(b)The case of the early fag:

Cigarette times are usually strictly set, however on this occasion we knew we wouldn’t have enough staff to facilitate going out for a fag at the proper time. So we brought it forward by ten minutes so that people wouldn’t have to wait an extra hour for one. Cue so much sulking and complaining that I briefly wondered if I’d told them they’d have to walk naked over hot coals to get their smoke.

I guess, when you are dependent on a regime you have no influence over, ranting when it changes – even for the better – is part of regaining some control. Or at least pissing the staff off mightily and thus providing some entertainment on those boring afternoons.

*Which periodically have to be removed after being used as projectiles. But since it’s a pain in the ass having to get staff to make hot drinks, they get put out again pretty sharpish.

Intimidation

Tactic employed by big, scary patients and, often occasionally, dickhead staff to get others to do what they want. Being quite little, I tend to get loomed over a lot. Depending on the patient, this is either intimidating or just plain annoying. As long as there is plenty of back up around I’ll stand my ground, show no fear, be a man, etc. If I’m on my own I’ll run like hell and challenge them from a safe distance (i.e. from 30 foot across the day area); I’m not bloody stupid.

Intramuscular Injections (Depot)

What you are likely to end up on if you keep palming/refusing to take your prescribed antipsychotics. Basically, a long lasting (usually fortnightly) injection into the buttock or thigh muscle.

In mental health services, people on a section 3 of the MHA can be given medication against their will for the first three months of the section. After that, their RMO will arrange for a Second Opinion Appointed Doctor (SOAD) to come and evaluate whether they believe the patient needs to continue with the medication. If they agree that the patient needs it (after discussion with the patient, their nurse and various other people) and the patient consents to taking it, they fill in a Form 38. If the patient does not consent, they fill in a Form 39.

In secure services, if you have a Form 39 and refuse your depot, tough. Extra staff will be summoned, you will be restrained on your bed and given it.

This is one of the bits of the job that disturbs me. In an emergency situation, where someone is very psychotic and determined to hurt anyone that comes near them, then I can more easily reconcile the use of forced medication to calm them down particularly when the alternatives are several hours of restraint or seclusion. But when you are stood outside planning to go in and pin down the very calm woman sat doing a jigsaw...it’s unsettling. That’s not to say I don’t always think it’s wrong; the last time jigsaw woman missed her depot she broke a staff members rib in an unprovoked attack.* But I think if I didn’t have some qualms about it then I probably shouldn’t be allowed near patients. Perhaps a career as some sort of dominatrix, but not MH nursing.

*Medication as social control? Of course not.

Tuesday, 17 November 2009

Ahh alcohol

(Erm, some of this could maybe be triggering for people with food issues. I think? Just a heads up...)


I don't usually drink much; it just makes me sick. I probably have a drink a couple of times a month. But I've been drunk the last three nights out of 4. I'm drunk now, in fact.

I've been feeling stressed. I'm at the point where I've got so much to do that I'm frozen and can't do any of it. Mr Door was off with me for a change, so I gave myself the weekend off from anything MH related, to take the pressure off a bit. Was nice while it lasted, but then I went straight back into pharmacology revision and...stuff. The dissertation module is turning into a bit of a farce, for various reasons that I'll probably whinge about later. Needless to say, my uni's organisation is living up to it's usual appalling standards, and it's not helpful. I've filled in the 26 page bursary form, dug out P60's stretching back 7 years to prove I was/am living independently from my parents, and made endless photocopies of everything ready to send off. I know I should be working more shifts so that I'm not skint over christmas when they recalculate it, but every time I'm there I think should be doing my assignments. Nevermind that I don't actually do them when I'm off.

I've also lost some weight. I was skinny anyway, but now I'm a bit more. It's not amazingly drastic; BMI is in the 17's, which is classed as underweight, although I'm exactly skeletal. I was ill about a month ago and lost just over half a stone, and my appetite has never properly recovered. Possibly stress related. As a result, I have Mr Door looking over my shoulder - out of concern, I'm sure - at what I'm eating. It's a pain in the arse; I already got a lecture off the nurse at my GP's, and I know I'm too skinny. But nagging me to eat more isn't going to help if I have no appetite; when I've tried to ignore it and carry on eating I just get sick. Plus, I have no set routine at the minute, so my eating habits are a bit erratic, which isn't helping. And of course, the more people see you not finishing meals, the more people get suspicious. And the more you deny to people you have an eating disorder, the less they believe you. I kind of want to have a badge printed: "Ask me if I have an eating disorder. I FUCKING DARE YOU."

So overall, bit of a wreck. What I really want to do is press the giant PAUSE button on life and take a breather, but that's possibly a bit unrealistic. What I need to do is give myself a slap, start at least one of the damn assignments and stop getting panicky when I think about the huge amount of work I have to do. And finish my friggin dinner.


PS: I need ideas for I and J of the ABC. I have institutionalisation and intimidation and my brain has ground to a halt.

Thursday, 12 November 2009

Degree v Diploma

So nursing is to change to being an all-degree profession from 2013. Not a huge surprise. Mental Nurse is having a proper discussion on it if you want to know more, because you know what?

I don't care.

Frankly, I don't give a damn what they make us do to be nurses. To be brutally honest, I'm hoping it will put some of the thicker applicants off doing it; you can be as caring as you want, but if you can't scrape a third in a degree with three attempts at every essay then there's no fucking way you should have people's lives in your hands.

Of course, the argument is that being able to write an assignment doesn't make you a good nurse. This is true. Assignments only show how well you can write assignments. However, if you still can't pass one on the third attempt after receiving feedback and support from tutors - and often just being told straight up what the hell to write - then that to me shows an inability to learn from your mistakes, to listen to and act appropriately on new information, and just an incredible density that means you should not be allowed to dish out potentially lethal drugs to sick people.

So I don't care. What I do care about, a great deal, is money. Of course.

I'm currently filling in a 26 page form begging the government to give me a pittance towards my living expenses, in order that I might qualify as a MH nurse and thus be graciously allowed to spend the next forty fucking years caring for people whom a fair percentage of society don't actually give a shit about.

You want to make sure people still go into nursing when it's all degree? Make sure they don't have to default on their mortgage to do it.

Wednesday, 11 November 2009

Parents, eh...

...they cause you nothing but stress.

Yeah, this isn't hugely mental health related, so feel free to go read something that has less of me getting stressed in it.

Ok. So regular readers will know that my mum is a falling-apart 54 year old who is already on her third hip replacement. Today, she had some more surgery; just a minor exploratory op for some womens' problems. The thing is, she is pretty sure she stopped breathing whilst under the anaesthetic; she heard them talking about it as she was coming round and woke up in the higher dependency bit with two nurses, rather than the recovery room they had told her she would be in. She didn't ask about it, though, and no-one has said anything to her. She's fine now, but it's making me a bit concerned cause she will almost certainly need more surgery in future given the crumbling nature of her joints. So I guess I'm after some reassurance from some doctors/proper nurses that this isn't likely to happen again. Please. I hope.

Otherwise, we had to submit dissertation topics today; was very short notice given that we only got the criteria half an hour before. After some negotiation with the bloke who I hope will be my supervisor, I'm going to investigate the effects of physical restraint on female patients. This is alongside the stuff on female sex offenders that I'm doing as a smaller essay. Am up to my eyeballs in women, basically. So, if anyone has any useful literature on either of these topics, my email address is at the bottom and it would make me love you forever :o)

Tuesday, 10 November 2009

I don't usually plug things, but....

...this could be useful for some people.

Someone from the Guardian has very kindly asked me to be a student 'expert' (hah!) on one of their live Q&A sessions about careers in the NHS tomorrow. I can't do it, unfortunately, due to my attempts to forage my own career in the NHS tomorrow afternoon. However, I did offer to plug the session, to make myself feel better. So, if you have any questions about getting an NHS career, then go here and some more helpful person will try and answer them.

Monday, 9 November 2009

Just...urgh.

Like nearly everyone else in Britain, I'm ill. I have a stupid cold. It's been developing very slowly over the last week, and I think I've had nearly every symptom of a cold seperate from every other symptom. So for three days I had a sore throat, then that went and I got a cough, now the cough has gone and I have a runny nose and hurty sinuses. All, however, were underpinned by a general feeling of crappiness. I would have rather had everything together and gotten it over with by now, but instead I think it's going to drag on.

So, forgive me if I'm a bit quiet lately but I just have very little energy and what small reserves I do have are dedicated to Uni work. I'm doing an essay on female sex offenders, which turns out to be quite topical, but it's pretty heavy going ploughing through the literature.

On the plus side, feeling crappy gives me a very good excuse to avoid taking any shifts at work. Avoidance is necessary right now because both ladies wards are, not to put it too finely, up the fucking pole, and the staff are dropping like flies. The thought of restraining with a dripping nose is not too appealing, although possibly the threat of being pinned down and having snot dripped on you might be a deterrent to any patient contemplating kicking off.

So, to summarise: Ill, skint, and buried under a mountain of sex offender literature.

Living the dream, people.

Thursday, 5 November 2009

H is for...

So, I've got my next placement sorted...I'm going back to where I work. I'm choosing to see it as the logical progression given where my interests seem to lie (i.e. forensics) and not just that I'm taking the easy route. Which I am. I've really enjoyed some of my other placements, and if the local acute wards ever go to 12 hr shifts then I would seriously consider applying to work there. But for now I just want to not be stressing over starting somewhere new and having to go there five days a week whilst also fitting in bank shifts and trying to do a dissertation. Being at work means 4 days off a week, first choice of bank shifts (cause I'll be able to hunt down the almighty Rota Woman and harass her) and the absence of freaking out with those 'new starter' nerves (ohshitohshitohshitwheredoIparkwheredoIeatluncharetheygonnabenicetomearghhhhh!).

Sound like I'm trying to justify it much?

Also, work is probably the only place in the area that is going to be taking on staff when I qualify since they are expanding and are about 40 RMN's short.

Yeah, still justifying it.

So, while I wallow in the feeling that I should really be making more of my training, here's H...


Hygiene (Personal and Environmental)

I may have mentioned before, but patients have a varied relationship with hygiene. Some border on obsessive in their bathing, whilst others prefer to moulder in their own filth until their clothes become physically attached to their skin. Most fall in between. If a person becomes so dirty that it is offensive* (usually about the time you start to gag when they enter the room...or even the building) then we bully them into the shower in the nicest possible way. On these occasions HazMat suits would be useful, and it would be nice if in the summer months we were just allowed to hose them down in the courtyard. Damn Human Rights Act.

Strangely, some of the people who would prefer to kill rather than change their clothes tend to be fastidious about their environmental hygiene. Patients are expected (read: nagged, usually fruitlessly) to clean out their room at least once a week, but all other areas are cleaned - again, with varying degrees of success - by domestics provided by a contractor. Some of the long stay wards absolutely reek of lavender-air- freshner-with-a-hint-of-stale-urine.

We have a lot of mice, which provides endless entertainment on a night shift when you're teamed up with the type of person who screams and jumps on a chair at the sight of something two inches long and furry. A well-placed dustball in a draught can have hilarious results at 4am.


*Which, to be fair, can apply to some staff as well. Wonder if the Human Rights Act prohibits hosing them down in the courtyard.


Hostages

We get a very basic level of training in ‘how not to piss someone off when they’ve taken a hostage’, from both a negotiator perspective and a hostage perspective. Role-play is often a great experience for staff, giving them as it does the opportunity to vent any frustrations they may have on the poor bugger who gets to play their hostage. All in the name of realism, of course.

Actual hostage situations are very rare, but are obviously very serious. One staff member who was involved in a pretty nasty incident 20 years ago never worked again after developing PTSD. Basically, we always, always phone the police; they have better training, and weapons, and body armour. Apparently they are going to be giving people proper hostage negotiation training soon, which is the kind of thing it sounds fun to go in for until someone barricades themselves in the quiet room with a pool cue and a terrified member of staff and it's you they call...


Hostel

Scary places where patients are discharged to in the hope that they won’t offend again. Quality varies massively, from the 'this is fantastic I want to live here forever' to the 'you can just kill me now, there's no fucking way I'm spending even a night there'. The quality of the supprt they give can make or break a patients chances of surviving on the outside. They are always, always underfunded.


Handover

This is when the nurses huddle in the office and talk about the X Factor for half an hour. Occasionally a patient may get a mention if they did something particularly exciting, although usually little short of murder and/or suicide will warrant interrupting the argument about the merits of Jedward. If you need their attention during this time, you best come armed with biscuits.


High Security

Where patients go when they are very naughty. There are three high security 'special' hospitals in England; Rampton, Broadmoor and Ashworth. We send them our most violent patients and they keep hold of them for a few decades years until they are burnt out/medicated into a less threatening state, at which point they send them back and we attempt to resocialise them into not being afraid of the outside anymore.

The hospitals themselves have security more akin to a prison. They have been subject to massive investigations over the years, with complaints ranging from the mass abuse of patients by staff, to the staff being completely under the thumb of the patients to the extent that sadistic paedophiles were being left alone with child visitors (see here for a snapshot, but the entire report makes for disturbing reading if you have the inclination). Things have allegedly improved now. Certainly, a lot of our patients that come from there seem to want to go back.


And on that cheery note, I'm off to revise antipsychotic drug classifications. Diphenylbutylpiperidine, anyone?